I am loosing my house and I cant do this anymore. I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like I am loosing everything and right now I am worth more dead then alive according to my life insurance policy. Im scared and cannot stop crying.

Keri , Im sorry  honest I am !!  However , you are on a new beginning   Remember    You knew this was possability !! I KNOW that doesnt take away the pain of really  happening ... However  the   thing is you  got to focus on what windows are opening now  those doors  are doors a closin .. God Did not spare your life  so you'd fail ..  There is something better there for you ... Im praying for you hon ... but dont give up  Cry for moment  then dry eyes  and  look beyond  this OK .  Its all a part of a past your  moving on and leaving behind  ... So stop, and LOOK AHEAD   NOT BACK    We Know youre worth FAR MORE ALIVE ...  AND  Keri   we love ya ...

Thinking of you - takes a lot of courage to be on your own again. It was very hard for me to kick out my daughter's father (never married). I had renters for a while so that I could keep my house, but it never turned-out well, just got me through until I got a promotion. The money helped, but it was very stressful having others around.

 Take care, you will be stronger and happier.

I know it is hard to see the forrest thru the trees right now, but you have just made a huge decision in your life and somethings that are going to make you that much happier are going to give you a fight.  Stay strong, you have 2 beautiful children, are young, and have a wonderful life ahead of you!  Make the best of what your are going thru right now and it will get better.  I had read in an earlier post that you had checked into some kind of assistance and you were not eligible because you made too much money.  I would still make an appt with your local Dept of Social Services to come in and meet with someone because you may be eligible for something, different types of assistance require different levels.Surely because you have 2 dependent children and are not receiving child support you would be eligible for something.  Stay strong Kerri and you will get thru it! 

I make too much for food stamps and other help like that from Social services. Already tried. I make too much for them but not enough to survive.

Keri, Girl!!! If you overcame cancer one of the deadliest things ever you can overcome this also. I know we all say this and that to try to make you feel better but I know its harder for you who is going though this. I know that you are in pain and feel that there is no way out. I do know that with time things are going to get better. Im not saying and never said that it would be easy but it will pass. I understand that you can't get any type of aid since you earn too much, but maybe get a roomate. Maybe that will help you alittle. Get someone that has no kids, there are many college students that need rooms. There has to be something out there.

Let me tell you a little about my mom's life. When I was 11 years old my dad left us. My mom had never worked in her life until he left. We were living in a house that he was going to buy for us. My mom had to start paying $800 rent on her own. With her having a minimum paying job. I used to take care of my two and 8 yer old brother and sister. My mom used to work nights while I used took care of them on my own. My mom would cook for other's on her days off and earn alittle extra. We would not have food at time, we did not have clothes at times. Thanks to God she survived that hell and now owns two houses and we all grew up. Im just trying to tell you that there is light at the end of the tunel. Hang in there my friend!

I agree with Supermomof4. You are one of those moms thats is going to be a legend in her family for many many generations for leading your family through these times of struggle.

Thanks guys!!

I know its gonna be difficult and Im just worried that I wont be able to find a place to live cause my credit is crappy. I am gonna have to file for bankruptcy to be able to start over. I will be alright just tend to go thru boughts of poor me and so forth.

I do have a roommate right now. He is paying $400 a month right now. 

Im really sorry to hear about this

Just be stong and know that you can and will get through this! 

Ok. Now that I can finish a thought. (Sorry Im at work)

Does anyone in AZ know of a House that I can rent in East Mesa? At least a 3 bedroom. If I can afford it a 4 bedroom. I need something. 

Gonna have to file for bankruptcy... (in case I didnt say before.)  I know this will get better but right now I just dont see it. Its hard and I knew it would be. I am taking my idiot ex to court for emergency child support.  

Keri, I am so sorry you are having to go through such hard times again. I know its very hard to try and see the positive or to even think that things will get better when its just been nothing but hard times. We are going through a similar situation and I know how hard it can be. Just try and stay possitive.

Here is a list of places to search for homes for rent. Good luck with whatever happens.

http://phoenix.craigslist.org/apa/ ...

http://www.rentals.com/ ...

 http://www.realtor.com/rentals/ ...

 

Had to file for an order of protection against my husband. He broke into the house yesterday morning and scared the crap out of us. So I went and called the cops on him. That was just nuts. So he was served this morning. Not gonna play games.

Please be careful, my ex was crazy and broke in to my apartment back when.

I know things are really hard, I have been in your shoes, and its incredibly scarey, but you are a very strong woman and you will get thru!!

Oh I will. I will call the cops at the first sight of him.

Think positve, we bought our house 2 years ago and we long for the days of renting at this point.  Life was simpler back then.  Your house is only a house, the people in it are what matter.  We have lived in an attic, a basement, even a tent, in any situation we made the best of it, you will too.  Bankruptcy will help clean your slate if that's what you have to do, think of how wonderful it will be to start all over fresh. I don't know you, only from MT, but you seem like one of the strongest people out there.  You will be fine, no matter where life takes you.  Take care of yourself, keep us posted.  You are in my thoughts!