During the school year I get up with my kids at 6am and have them out the door by 6:40am. If I have to work then Im still up at 6am with the kids but we are out the door by 6:30am. 

I have such a hard time getting going. Im tired of being tired all the time.

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Id like to be able to see the articles but the whole url isnt listed.

Can you try again???

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Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

I went to the Gyn for my annual check up and looking into ending my periods permenantly.

Well the news isnt what I was wanting to hear. I possibly have utrine fibroids and most likely have to have a hysterectomy.  Im afraid that this might end my career. Im not so worried about the surgery but the pain afterwards. Also afraid of not being able to lift right again. Lifting heavy weights is part of my job discription.  So Im terrified and I cant stop crying. I dont care about loosin my uterus cause I told them to keep my overies. I will know soon after I finish my tests.

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Thanks everyone! I need the encouragement.

The reason why Im worried about not lifting is because my Mom had it done a few yrs ago. She had a bad Doc and he really screwed up. She went in again with a diff doc who fixed it. I think she went in one more time to finish. So she cannot lift heavy things. It worried me abit cause I dont want it to be career ending. We shall see.

Will know the results in about 2wks. I had blood drawn today and a CT of my pelvis and also an ultrasound on my lower tummy. Once that is all done I will know soon after.

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Its gotten really bad now. I was forced out of work today by my GYN. She said that the blood work came back and that it looks like crap. Im going into the hospital today to have it removed. Said it might be cancerous. They dont know till the biopsy comes back. Im in tears right now and Im afraid of dying. I dont want to leave my kids.

PLEASE pray for me.

For those of you in AZ I am going into Banner Desert Medical Center on Dobson and the US60.

will let all know what happens.

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Thank you. Im still waiting on gettin into the hosp. I should be home in 4 days if all goes well. Will post when I can.

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Hello one and all.

I am finally home from the hospital. Sore and tired. Sorry that I havent email or whatever my status but there was no access to the net and hubby mainly stayed at the hosp with me.

Here is my status as follows....

I have been diagnosed with Non-hodgkins Lymphoma. I do not have it in my bones so that is a good thing. I have a large tumor from my lymphnodes down there going nuts and pressing on my ureters.  So I had abit of renal failure. The Dr was able to put in a catheter to hold open my right side ureter but was unable to get it in the other side. So I have a tube coming out of my back on the left side.  I have to have Chemo and Chemo only. I was told to be havin 6 treatments. I have had only one so far. Made it just fine through that. They have medications to keep me from being sick so that is good.

Right now I am just plain tired and my tastebuds are all screwed up. So I am just gonna lay down and relax for now.

Please continue to say prayers for me. I need all I can get.

Keri

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Im so happy to bed home and I just need to rest. I am gonna try to go back to work next week but we shall see. I know I will have help at work so Im not worried about that. I just miss work and my partner. I hate not workin now that I have a job that I love.

I hate having this dang tube coming out of my back but there is nothing I can do about that. Will have to wait until the tumor in my lower region goes down. Sheesh.

Chemo lasts for another 5 treatments but they are spread across three months worth. One treatment every three weeks. Had my first one in the hosp. Went well.

Im gonna try to sleep now. Wish me luck.

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Thanks.

Also on top of this I have a heart problem. Silly me forgot to metion that. For some reason and its unknown why my heart isnt pumping out enough blood. Normal hearts pump 55% to 60% of its volume. Mine is pumping 35%. Lovely. So I am on heart meds too. Hopefully this has to do with my cancer and nothing else. Its confusing to me and everyone.

Thanks for the kinds words everyone.

Im gonna try to sleep but it maybe a hard one.

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Oh my dear!!!

I am so sorry to hear that you have been left! What a hard thing to suddenly have happen. And your poor babies!! They must be so confused!

Make sure that you explain that him leaving had NOTHING to do with them at all but rather him. I wish I knew the right words to say but I just dont. Please know that I am saying a prayer for you this night that you find strength to move on and say screw him!!

Hugs. We are here for you.

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Ya well hes enough to drive me insane. He has yet to go back to work. He probably wont till next week. Maybe. At least he is working on my Camaro.

Im tired and sore and depressed cause the stupid tube that is in my back. ARRRRGGH!

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Thanks.

This is just so bothersome for me being out of commission like this. But every day I am feeling stronger then the day before. I am hoping to head back to work next Friday.

Thank you all for the prayers and good thoughts n wishes.

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Hi.

Thanks for the support. Yes I have family here in Mesa but having more people for emotional support is always helpful. Just bein able to talk about what is happening helps. This is frightening for me but I am going to move on. Cant let this all get me down. I am depressed and irritated about having this tube coming out of my back but there is nothing I can do about it now. Its not a permenant thing thankfully.

Keri

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Thanks.

I know that I need to take it easy and Id love to take off until Im done with my chemo but I just cant do that. If I could just get this tube out soon Id function better but I cant right now. Sheesh. I will have lots of help from my partner and the firefighters that I work with. So Im not alone.

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