I quite agree. Its hard on us. He thinks hes not alcoholic cause he drinks starting at 4 or 5pm and quits when he runs out. Also cause he can get up in the morning and not drink again till 4pm.

I found alot of sex sites that he has gone to looking for cybersex and such. He tells me and a friend of mine who is gay that I am out looking for male friends and turnin them on. No I dont do that. Sorry.

Well Thanks for the kind and encouraging words. I have tried to make it work but Im done.

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

He has never had a problem with my partner. He is the first one. I can tell when  he is feeling threatened or jealous and its not that. One time long ago I did love him but I dont now.  Its like that old song...

Youve lost that loving feeling. I have tried to deal with him and his drinking. He doesnt want help. I tried to get him to go get on meds for it but he doesnt want to. Doesnt want to go to AA meetings. I have given up now.

No I dont have any other man in my life. There is no other relationship but it seems he is lookin online for cybersex and the like. Not my cup of coffee.

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

Yes Im sick and tired of my period. Always gets in my way when I dont want it too. I cant have anymore kids so there is no need for my period. Im going to the Dr. today to discuss having my periods halted with the Ablation therapy.

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

I have gone online and filled out the forms for divorce. Now I just need to print it and file it with the courts. I have absolutely no fears or worries in doing this.

Will let everyone know what happens.

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

Thanks. I plan on it.

Right now dipsh*t is passed out with a beer in hand. Cute eh?

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Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

Jazzy,

Thanks. I know its gonna be hard but I will survive.

I just need alot of emotional support from people. I appreciate it.

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Well its done. I have packed up all his clothes and loaded it into his truck and told him to leave. Yes I was sad and upset by it but Im over it now. I just cant deal with it anymore. IF and thats a big If he is sober and stays that way I will take him back but if not then it will be over. Everyone says I have done the right thing. I will give him one more chance to stop the drinkin and get his head straight. Im tired of bein stressed out and being yelled at. My kids and I shouldnt have to deal with this anymore. Our safety and wellbeing is more important.s

Well I am gonna relax and probably fall asleep.  Talk with ya all later. I have work tomarrow. MY kids are taken care of. My Mother inlaw will care for them at night and get them on the bus for school.

 HUGS all.

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

Travis and Rebecca,

I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Sean sounded like he was a wonderful guy! I please know that I am saying a prayer for the both of you and families to find the strength and peace through this difficult time.

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Well this was the major wake up call that my husband had needed. He had two choices and I had to kick him in the butt to go either way. It was his choice. One he could stop drinking forever and come home to be a family man or two he could continue drinkin and loose everything. SOOOOO he chose the path of not drinking again.

NOW since he has been sober since Saturday he has told me that he didnt know how bad this has gotten. He no longer desires the beer. That is very good. He came home Sunday when no one was there and did some paperwork for his job and he did see the divorce papers sitting there. So he knows that if he does drink he will be permenantly alone.  I told him that if he drinks even a sip I will go file those papers and our marriage is done. I have decided on my own that since he is making the effort that I will give him one more chance. Dont doubt what I am doin people. He isnt drinkin.

He knows he has a lot of work to do to make him normal and apologize to the family.

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

HI All!

Just wanted to give you an update on Bryon's progress.
He has not taken a drink and HAS admitted that he is an alcolholic and needs help. He never realized how bad he had gotten and is taking steps to make it without the beer.

Yes he has alot of work to do on top of stayin sober is to make amends with his kids. My daughter is very upset that I didnt divorce Dad but I explained to her that I always give you a second chance at things so I at least have to give Dad one more chance. His temperment is alot better and when he wakes up he is in a good mood.

I am hopeful that he makes it in life but I am also cautious with what might happen down the road.

Thank you all for caring about our safety  I will watch out. My kids are staying with Grandma on the nights I work for a time so that they dont stress him out. Im off from work for the next four days so I can dedicate some time at home with him and the kids. Next Saturday is his birthday and he is making plans for me and him to go out of town and spend the day up in Flagstaff at a hotel. He doesnt want to go to a resturant or have a party cause it normally intails beer.

Thanks.

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

Solamente el fuertes sobreviven - Only the Strong Survive!

I dont wear makeup for two reasons. One I hate it. Two I work out in the heat and it just comes off my face. So I just dont. Not even lipgloss. I do wear lipbalm when my lips need it.

I have told my daughter that the clothes and also makeup doesnt make the person. Its whats inside that counts. She is 11yrs old and doesnt like makeup or anything girly. Dont blame her. Neither do I. But if she so chooses to wear makeup then I will get her some.

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Well honestly I thought it was pretty cool looking. But then again Im very STRANGE. Things like that facinate me. Even humans that do that. I try to figure out how they got that way.

Ok Im totally strange and maybe abit morbid.

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