Hubby was just laid off, Daughter is just getting over being sick, I called 911 when I was playing card with my G'ma and now shes in the hospital. Lets just say, Ive been drinking my wine a little bit too much to help me sleep at night... Ohhh well... it could be worse?

I changed the ringtone on my husbands phone for April Fool's Day to play:  Spiderpig song sung by Homer Simpson. 

he keeps his phone on vibrate but I changed it for today!  Should be funny since he works for a software company.

My boys had a game this morning and I left my little girl with my sis-in-law. It felt goooooooood!!! to not have to be runing around with her at the game. Later tonight the boys and I will go and watch a local baseball game also, and I will leave my little girl with my friend!! My dh is out of town so I guess its just the boys and I today. I love her but it feels good to just watch a game for a change!

The last two days I was home alone with the kids because dh was out of town. Today I went to the Mall by myself for about four hors. I was so relaxed wiouth my bratz. I felt that four hours was not enough though.

My hubby called from work today, to see how me and the kiddies are doing this monday morning, and when he asked how I was doing, I told him I was upset over the backyard.. wanted to get him to help fix it up, and about the bills, ongoing frustration,   but he said, ok i didn't call to think about these things, so i'm going to let u go....  well, he couldn';t hang up fast enough!  So why bother ask how I am doing, if you don't really want to listen or know, I just wanted a caring word or two!!  GRRR  Don't ask, if u don't want to know.. sigh... at least he called to see how I was, lol, at least I know he was thinking of me!!

Girls Sounds just like my Husband. He calls in the mornings to see how we are doin also. There has been times when I feel frustrated and tell him over the phone also. He doesn't hang up but just stays quiet, same thing i guess. Men!!

When I visit my MIL and FIL, It makes me think how much I would rather be pulling my teeth out with a pair of pliars!!!

When I visit my MIL and FIL, It makes me think how much I would rather be pulling my teeth out with a pair of pliars!!!

I totally feel the same way.  Having been a single mom, I know for sure there were times when something celestial took me from the edge...I just don't know what, who, or any of those five questions....but I believe...and I come off like you do to other people too....closet believers??

I found out last week that my ex husband married his skanknasty that he cheated on me with before I left him.  He married her last month on a Saturday.  I'm sure he had a wedding, complete with dress for her ugly self.  I'm jealous that I bore his son and he wouldn't do that for me, I want him to see me doing well without him, just like I told him we would.

I tell my boyfriend that we'll get married and even use his last name sometimes, but I have no intention of ever doing so.  I will never ever get married again unless I'm dragged kicking and screaming.  I feel bad about that because I know he loves me, but I don't think I'll ever love completely again.  

I sometimes fantasize about being a single mom again just for the freedom but know I would miss him terribly.

I could prob. go on for hours. I love my ds more when someone else has him (he looks so much cuter). And I really hate the ..Oh, the baby is crying, give him to mommy! hand offs that most visitors do. (which I understand... partially). My soon-to-be SIL really can drive me CRAZY too. She is unable to not be in touch with my brother one-way or another. He stops over at the house, and she seems to be soon to follow, and then when she gets here, she has to spend time with ds. (And she seems to think she is such a great friend) -her family is even worse sometimes. I love my parents especially when I see them with my ds, but I feel bad when he spends so much time with them. I feel like I am asking too much of them.

I drew fairies on my husbands back today while he was napping. I didn't do the dishes for the past 2 days. I am on dish strike. I have asked for help with the housework and garden but it is all put on the backburner. I moved them around "loudly" until my husband woke up from his nap. My husband did them today before leaving to band practice and I loved every minute of it. While he did them, I went walking around outside and planned a new garden area- of course it is all on me.

I ate two hotdogs and not one for dinner. I feel guilty about this more than I do about the dish strike.

 

 

Okay, I live in a basement, which doesn't have a door (we have a blanket separating our room from most of the hallway, and it is just creepy at night. Well, when I watch too many crime scene tv shows (like CSI, Bones, and stuff) I have trouble sleeping when my ds wakes me up in the middle of the night (and I hate going upstairs to use the bathroom). Basically, I'm still kinda "scared" of the "dark" (more like my mind runs wild and scares me by thinking there are things where I can't see). I don't know how I will help my children if I still can't conquer this fear!

I ate a bowl of fruity pebbles for dinner. I worked out today though so that works out right????hehe

I'm pissed of at jesse cause he has been to see clutch 2 times in the last 30 days. me, oh no, I hvent been to either show...grrrr and to top it off he bought a ticket to go see the crowes in senaca next month....WTF? thats in NY... he called from work and said "hey the crowes are playing in NY you wanna go ," I was like no thats too far I'm not ready to travel far like that right now not with all this bloodclotting issue crap I'm dealing with...blah blah blah... my dear sweet hubby didnt say oh its in seneca NY just 3 hrs away... phucin' turd! So he bought his ticket to go and his Boy wax is going with him... grrrr

I think he got me this new monitor to mkae up for it but that just dont cut it with me... so I did a mean thing... I waited until he was about to leave for the concert tonight... and said hey I need some new cloths we got cash for that or can i charge it? he couldnt fight about it he was on his way out the door so I won a shopping spree!

I lacked the patients to be supportives of DH last night when once again, his family situation caused him pain.  I had a great day balancing work & wife/mommy duties, was feeling better and had loads of fun with Rivers.  He came home and some stuff surfaced about his family and then he was all pissed off - rightfully so.  But dude, I am so sick of them monopolizing so much of his energy - it is not fair.

So instead of being supportive, after he vented, I told him to grow up and get over it.  Then when he told me I didn't understand because if something happens with us I still have my supportive family and he has noone - replied, well, the primary and largest stressor our relationship has is your family.

Anyways - I keep telling him to get help and he won't swallow his pride to do it.  Had to vent - just feel really bad because I would prefer to be encouraging and supportive, but also have a strong enough is enough personality which prevents me from my other desires at times.